Crazy!... I'm not crazy!

Sittin' here, rackin' my mind,
knowing how i feel,
wondering if you think me kind.
Are my feelings real?
My thoughts relentless, there to remind;
for happiness and love i'd kill.
life doesn't take back, replay, rewind.
i wish life were easy to swallow, a tiny pill.
The kife is jagged, all too real.
life's a haze, a misty tomb,
the pain intense, reality surreal,
love's a rose that won't fully bloom.